Publication date 13 February 2024, from Penguin Press. Illustrated with real and imaginary photographs. I braid together two timelines: the first six months of my transition and the panorama of my entire life. I tell my story in as few words as possible, but with plenty of digressions and a good shake of the old gusto jar. You’ll laugh, maybe you’ll cry (beats me), but I do guarantee a scenic ride. I hope you’ll attend to my story and the way I tell it, not only because I have a compulsive need to explain myself to every one of you, but also because my story has bearing on many other imperiled stories today. I want to tell you what it’s like to not transition when you clearly should–how to try to live a lie, and what to do when the lie gives out.